Maybe I’m Dying!

Well I’ve been sleeping the past week and a half, at least thats how I feel.
But it’s almost time for me to leave my home town now, and head to Melbourne to see my closest friends and my brother.

If anyone’s been to Noosa in Queensland Australia, then you will know how one can feel asleep in this slow moving beach town with the casual vibe, and sleep supporting warm blanket climate.
Honestly I’m tired so frequently and for so little reason that I’ve genuinely spent some days wondering whether I’ve fallen ill with something that seems like nothing at first, then ends up to be terminal! (I get to that conclusion increasingly quickly as I get older).
But I genuinely spent less time this tired while working my 75 hour performance work weeks aboard the Disney Wonder.
I genuinely want to know why doing nothing and sleeping this much is so tiring, and whether or not I really do have only weeks to live.
After Noosa I’ll be spending 2 weeks killing time in Melbourne and hopefully feeling less tired as I eat in restaurants, eat room service, eat in cafes and eat in bars.
I’ve promised my friend I’ll commit to at least one all nighter spent gaming at an internet cafe with a room full of highly skilled gaming nerds. I never feel less competent than when I’m gaming.
I’m enthusiastic enough about gaming to be subscribed to a gaming magazine and to read about it. I love reading about games and love being excited for a games release, it’s just playing the games that bores me.
Is that weird?
Sometimes I enjoy playing games but their never games that anyone respects, like the Sims or SimCity.
These are games that have no place at all night gaming situation with gaming athletes, so I’ll have to flounder my way through a real game like League of Legends and endure constant defeat as my superiors destroy what will be my most sincere efforts at winning.
Once I’ve finished eating and gaming through my 2 weeks of Melbourne I’ll return to Noosa for a couple days before flying back to America to resume work for Disney.
I do like to return to Australia to be reminded of several things. That while food can be ridiculously expensive, it can also be less damaging to my body. That public transport can also be horrifically expensive, but carry almost nobody who wants my money. That the Australian accent is as awful as I remember, that the doctor is a free option when I’m sick and that the lack of Ozone layer in this country really does feel like it’s making a difference not existing.
The best thing about being in Noosa however (besides seeing family of course) has been teaching kids and teenagers acting workshops.
I partner with a local theatre company to teach kids and teens to act and it is the best fun ever, theres nothing better than a job with young people that doesn’t require you to care for them but allows you to boss them around anyway!
I love to share what I’m learning from being on the stage, and the kids are incredible so it’s awesome.
Plus it never hurts to make back some of the Australian dollars I’m blowing through on my credit card.

Ok well my eye is itching on account of my parents dog so I’m gonna go. I’ll update you soon so until then keep smiling. 🙂 Coz when you smile, the whole world remains unaffected. 🙂

Don’t be my friend!

Aaaaaah Sunshine Coast.
For those reading who haven’t heard of the Sunshine Coast, it’s that shire on the south east of Queensland in Australia that’s famous for surfing, ice cream and rapid tanning.

If you like beaches, the sun and a slower paced way of life then you would enjoy living here. Most of my friends do not like that way of life so they’ve moved away, which kinda kills the fun for me when I come back for my triumphant return and find … No one.
But it also makes sense that this has happened to me, because I make friends easily with people who are similar to me, and the fast paced city life is what I value. I’ve sealed my own lonely fate.
What I should do is make friends with people who enjoy living here, so that I can always return to find someone to hang out with. Although it’s altogether to late now, unless I can make a friend in 4 days.

One my friends that I value the most lives in New Zealand! Which is entirely unhelpful, how often do I find myself there? The answer is – not often.
People say that having friends all over the world is great! That when you travel you’ll have a place to stay, but I’m finding that it’s not really that easy.
I care about the friends that I have, the ones that I really value I think about and pine for.

I’m not really someone that does things by halves, so after meeting people I sometimes forget about them immediately, which makes it awkward when later on I can’t recall their name.
Or it goes the other way, I fall for them and miss them earnestly when I’m kept away from them. It’s a horrible trait for someone in my position.

So sure, if I happen to travel where they live I certainly do have a place to stay and someone to see, but in the meantime I have a bunch of people to miss and a reason to stay awake at night and question my life choices.
Ive got friends in Canada. England, America, Brazil, and lots of other countries and it’s so good and so bad!
Part of the problem is that no-one lives in tourist locations! When I visited China recently I was unable to see my friend because he lives in an obscure city somewhere, and I only had time for Shanghai and Beijing. That situation is awful because your so close, but sooooo far.

However despite the reality of this conundrum, it’s not a problem I can see a fix for. I’m not going to stop caring about people, and for the foreseeable future I’m not gonna stop traveling.
I really should introduce a proximity test for my potential friends. I can just see a grueling screening process that involves people being location tested, and their home location tested against my likely future home location. Anymore than a few hundred kilometers, and it’s over before it starts. I’m not quite that insane, but I can see becoming that bad.

I can imagine people that I know reading this and thinking “oh my goodness, he’s pining over me!” But sadly, I’m probably not haha, there aren’t very many people in that category. Most people don’t realize they’re in the other category, and for that I’m very sorry.
I have two friends who I work with that are in a relationship, and it’s for them that I am the most sympathetic. I get so whiney over mere friends! I can’t even imagine what it’s like being on opposite sides of the world with my significant other. They live in completely different continents, and it must be even more difficult. Either that, or perhaps they’re less emotional all the time haha.
However this level of thinking about people is not something that has ever been typical of me in the past. This has only begun recently, and it’s slowly but surely making me notice people more and do things such as ask questions about their lives and listen to the answers.
I’m genuinely far more curious now about how people are, and more than that I notice what they are good at and what they would like to accomplish in life.
I really recommend it, because people lead fascinating lives and have skills and talents you may never have noticed.
The Sunshine Coast is a place that I’ve never walked around thinking “this place is the source of all talent”, because it’s where I grew up, and I’ve always wanted to move away and try and make it somewhere.
But now that I’ve left, and been away for 3 years, I have reached a place in my mind that I can see the place as more than just a place I wanted to leave. There are younger people with more talent than me, who are far better looking than me, who want to go somewhere and make it.
And to these people I want to say just freaking do it. It’s less scary than you think, your better than you think, and those other people your competing against are just as scared as you are.

I’ve always wanted to be a casting director, and this has always made me bold in telling attractive, talented people in world-leading cities that I think they’ll make it.
But now I’m seeing it wherever I am, and I’m seeing people like this in my home town. But how do I tell them? How do I approach the kid of my mothers friend, who’s just out of highschool and just say “hey, I don’t know what you were planning, but you should be a model.”
Is that creepy?

This might be part of the reason I love shark tank so much, it’s is an amazing reality show in which a panel of 5 investors hear business pitches and can invest in the people they believe in.
I wish that I could do a version of that, how much better would it be to approach that same school-leaver and say “hey, I think you should be a model, and here’s $10,000 to get you started, and I’m gonna sponsor your modeling school.”
I dare say people would benefit from that. I’d love to be able to invest in the talent of younger, better people.
But I can’t do everything now, gotta leave something for later in life haha.

So now you know my hopes and dreams, I’m gonna leave you to the rest of your day.
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The Sticky Couch in the Small Town

Noosa is melting my face off.

Why is it that everyones parents live in a small town? Some of my most city loving, hip, forward thinking, corporate type friends that only have friends in big city type places – have parents in small towns.
I dunno, but it forces me to come back here fairly regularly and I’m always faced with those moments when everyone is carrying out their lives and your stuck alone thinking “how did this happen?”

Because of course when you visit somewhere, your only visiting! Your on vacation and have no worries, whereas the people living here have been caught in the middle of their everyday lives and are expected to fit you in.
So because of this, there are those hours every so often that everyones either working or busy, and your left alone. It’s never anywhere good either, it’s on a couch in someones living room. It won’t be a hot day, but only in this living room its 1000 degrees and the couch is becoming one with your back. It’s only really when I’m super hot, my clothes are dirty, and I’m alone in a small town that I really re-evaluate my life.
Even if everything in my life is perfect! I’ll still re-evaluate. “I have a job for Disney that has me travelling the world entertaining and pays for all my expenses …. Where did I go wrong?” I dunno, it puts me in a weird state of mind.
Although my job has a lot of pitfalls, not that anyone will hear about it. Everyone thinks I’m a terrific douche whenever I complain, because the good parts of the job are so loud, they can’t understand that anythings bad.
I’ll say “the hours are long, I really want the job that my job promotes into but its not happening, the job can be really frustrating.”
But all anybody hears is “I live in Miami, I’m a jet-setter, I can go to Disneyland for free giggle giggle giggle I’m a douche.”

I’m aloud to have problems too! Does anyone out there have problems that no-one will acknowledge? Because I can’t be the only one. Yes I’m going to the Magic Kingdom this saturday, but in a couple weeks I start working 75 hour weeks again, don’t you think something might be bad?
I’ve gotta say though, if I ever get promoted into the job that I want, I’ll never complain again. (errrr lie).

You should have seen the look on the guys face in the games shop today. He asked me if I wanted to subscribe to the gamer magazine I was buying a copy of, and I said no because I’m living and working in America at the moment, so I’ll just get the American one.
——- His face read “what a self entitled model of a douche”
So from now on I’m just gonna say — “no”. Easy

But here I am at the end of it all, at my parents place with the most constant and reliable part of my life. The sticky couch in the small town. I’ve got 3 more days here and then I’m off, so can you stand my complaining until then? I sure hope so.

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G’day Australia!

A great post by a blogger travelling to my great land of Australia. She has flying a lot more worked out than I do, so take this advice haha.

Oh Hey Planet Earth!

Greetings fellow Earthlings (:

Well here I am… in the great expanse of land that we call Australia. Having landed in my first settlement – the bustling city of Melbourne, I suppose it’s time to document my first adventure.

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Day one:

Was a very long day indeed! (48 hours to be exact) It was also my first time flying alone (Yikes!)

The journey here:

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I flew with Royal Brunei Airlines and I’ll not lie, the service was pretty flawless. My transit lasted just over 24 hours in total, including one refuel and one stopover, and it was surprisingly less painful than I imagined. My ticket costed in the region of £750 (economy) and the three legs split it up quite nicely. I was in an aisle seat in the middle section, and I’d recommend this to any first time travellers, or flyers in general – simply because you won’t have to…

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